yes, i feel shitty, so i wrote how i feel. what do ya think?
That Girl
Who is that girl…
That keeps her head high,
And acts like nothing’s wrong.
But her inside is aching,
And her heart is no longer strong.
Who is that girl…
That gives her brightest smile,
Laughing at every trace.
But will this flower bloom…
When she’s hiding the frown upon her face?
Who is that girl…
Whose heart is sinking deep.
She feels weak and insecure.
No one is around.
No one can save her.
Who is that girl?
That’s dying inside.
And thinks she’s out of place.
Everything’s towering over her,
There isn’t any space.
Who is she?
That girl,
Is me.
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My Reflection
I look at the mirror.
And what do I see?
Limp hair, pale skin.
Not the girl I want to be.
I stroll toward school.
Kicking rocks along the way.
How can I change?
Or should I stay who I am today?
I walk back home.
And let out a tired sigh.
The tears sting my cheeks.
But no one hears me cry.
I spot my reflection in a puddle.
I look down, still insecure.
Twinkling eyes, bright smile.
I want to be her.
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The Things You Do
When you hug me,
I love your warm touch,
When you smile,
My heart beats so much.
When I hear your laugh,
My mouth tingles with bliss.
When you touch my cheek,
I crave your kiss.
When you wipe my tear,
I feel strong.
When you smooth my hair.
My worries are gone.
But it’s all in my head.
Your love isn’t true.
Realize I’m dying inside.
I need you.
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Tomorrow
It’s raining right now.
The water is dropping on the glass.
The day is finally over.
At last.
I feel weak.
I feel like everything’s a lie.
Please realize how much you‘re hurting me.
And open your eyes.
I don’t get why this happened.
Why did everything go wrong?
But tomorrow’s a brighter day.
I just have to stay strong.
The suns blaring through my windows.
As I sit up, half asleep.
Today’s a new start.
But I’m still sinking deep.
I thought everything would be better.
But why do I feel so insecure?
I can’t stop hating myself.
I want to be like her.
But tomorrow’s a new start.
A brighter day.
So, I need to get out of bed.
And ignore the doubts that come my way.
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What happened?
We were as tight as a knot.
We were always together.
You made me smile when I didn’t want to.
And promised we’d be friends forever.
But what happened?
You’re different now.
I no longer matter.
Our friendship hit the floor.
And shattered.
Tell me that you still care.
Reassure me that I haven’t been replaced.
Smile by my side, and laugh with me.
And wipe that stuck-up smile off of your face.
Pretty soon I gave up.
Got sick of your abuse.
I turned my back on you, like you did to me.
But I’m still left with a throbbing bruise.
I’ll try to find true friends.
And you’ll fade like all the weak minded do.
I’ll forget the pain you caused me.
Just a mere memory of the morning dew.
